When You, When I, Just Need Somebody to Talk With

Have you ever felt like a break, a crack, an empty. There around your chest? Or. Inside? I ain’t really sure where is it. Some moments when it suddenly come and come again, it’s tearing somehow. Well I also don’t know how and why. But I know it’s a part of emotion called ‘sadness’.

Have you ever felt such sucks thing? Something which actually can not be hidden from human’s soul, at least we know it. Maybe it’s just not shown. Or, maybe some of us really never felt a sadness. Because you have been feeling it for too many times, that make you just can not cry anymore. Because you have already heartless. 

Have you?

Have you ever been alone when the day almost over. When a night accompanies you to finish up all things that day. Then nobody near you. Then the stars just do not come, hiding behind leaves in front of your room. And the worst, moon hide itself far from your eyes like it really want to make a loneliness for one night. For them who decide to feel lonely, also for them who just alright, but for unclear reasons the destiny has ambition to make them lonely for a while. But deep. A really deep loneliness.

Have you ever really want to cry loudly but you can’t. But you just say to yourself that you are okay, you are strong, you are just wasting time while crying. But somehow you remain remembering your role in the worlds as humans, as fragile soul, as volatile-hearted. So sometimes you really cry out loud. You don’t care people, world, even your lover who many times has ignored you. Even your family. Sometimes you feel don’t want to make them difficult juat because of your life is down a while, or everytime.

Have you ever decided to just go far, alone, nobody care? Then you truly say to yourself that nobody really love you, giving up anything for you. After that you try to calm down yourself and go somewhere where the wind blows, where water just go everywhere and makes sound, where you can lay down with grasses and birds singing around you. Then sometimes you really do for  yourself. Sometimes you do make yourself happy, eventhough you know it will be just a fakev happiness. But somehow you know, you have to be optimistic for life, then assure yourself if you need to go further and be with God again.

Have you aver really want a hug? Desperately. Then you just can wish for all things you hope that time. Sitting down, looking at the floor, suddenly cry. It’s embarrassing to you. But you know, people do it. When life is meaningless to continue, in short words. But behind that, you know that you can laugh everyday, sharing heart, smilling to almost every thing you meet in each seconds. You really know actually it’s just a human-sudden-sadness. Again, with unclear reasons, destiny try to make you sad. You know, it indicates that you’re ‘still’ a human.

And that moment is called: when you, when I, just need somebody to talk with.